Hey everyone! Can you believe I have not written a blog post all year? Even I’m shocked! Well let’s see what’s been going on in my life and reveal some things.
First and foremost, I want to say I am so sorry. There were people who are genuinely interested in my posts and I let them down. My blog is my safe space where I can release and open my mind and be free to speak and say anything. But the biggest reason I haven’t posted is my lack of proper time management.
I am truly terrible at it, and I know I could be better but I just don’t put in the effort which sucks. So no pity party, I’m very aware. I also lack motivation. I’m someone who stays motivated when I see constant success. So when something doesn’t go my way I typically fall off. I’m terrible at having an idea and seeing it through.
There are so many things I want for myself and for you all, but I never write my ideas down, I don’t make charts or planners to organize myself. So things don’t typically come to happen because I didn’t put in the effort to make it happen.
I always get motivated or excited the most when I say I have a surprise coming, because I generally will have something I’m excited to share and it makes so happy when you all get excited too. I love being so open and honest but I guess it’s not open if I don’t tell you eventually, huh? So that’s my bad, and I take responsibility for that.
I do have a good friend in my ear constantly pushing me, but she doesn’t see my background processes and struggles. But I hide them from her as well. Only because I don’t want to disappoint her, but something tells me she knows me better than I know myself. I feel like you all do.
So what can I do to be better? I guess just put in the effort and give myself more realistic goals that I can see happen every week versus in 6 months. I have so much planned, but it’s not gonna happen if I don’t actually put in the work. It’s just way easier said than done.
Hopefully soon I’ll be able to share more openly when I can make things happen. I think you all will be very excited. I’m just trying to be different in this industry. And I believe that’s a good thing. I hope you all think so too. Until next time, I’ll chat with you later sweets.