I’m so happy I Failed..

Hi everyone, how are y’all today? I hope you had a happy Thanksgiving! This year my birthday landed on Thanksgiving, it happens every blue moon. But I do love when it does, I get a bigger meal and it’s free! So that was nice, but this year I was happily alone in my truck with my cat, Poody.

But enough about him, let’s talk about something raw and savory, and I don’t mean bacon; I mean my life and how it’s been twisting and turning. Not to sound too conceited but I wanna share the secrets I’ve been keeping and how it maybe can help you take your life in a different direction if need be. So I shall tell it, in song! No not really, but I will tell you a story.

You see, not long ago, I was a nail tech in 2021. I’ve been doing nails for much longer, but this is the meat of the story. So let’s not fluff it up shall we? While doing nails here and there I was also a full time Uber driver. I quit trucking to focus on nails and have more free time. What I believed to be a good decision quickly turned into a rabbit hole I wasn’t sure where it was going. But I was bravely and courageously optimistic. Little did I know, I needed a plan, and a good one.

My car’s transmission went out one dark night and I had to stop working early. Here is where downfall begins. I go home, reevaluate my self and decide I want to continue Uber for the sake of freedom and control of my schedule. So I rented a car through their program and it was $1,535 a month. I still had my own bills of course so I was definitely making life harder for myself but I knew if I could persevere I would make it through.

Flash forward into 2022. After nearly a year of renting, one of my gracious clients loaned me $2,500. I took this and bought a car, unfortunately I couldn’t get a new car because Uber isn’t exactly stable income to prove to banks, so I did a buy here, pay here. I felt like the world was looking up! I’m back in my own car and saving money than having a rental.

Now through all of this I was a distributor as well. I had my own products I made and also sold for another company, I will say that was very fun and rewarding. I’ve never had a business before so it felt awesome to have another source of income. But like with everything else I do, I didn’t take it seriously and put in the work to make it grow. So it kind of fell off. I had highs and lows and that wasn’t good enough and I honestly didn’t understand what I was doing. But I kept going.

2022 was an interesting year because my bestfriend got on tv and wore my press ons and instantly I became a celebrity nail tech. It felt amazing, but I didn’t get to feel good about it because I was struggling behind the scenes. Hoping I could make enough money to get to the next month. So on the outside I was flourishing going here and there and making press ons for everyone, but I was still scraping by.

Welcome 2023, our current year. I’m still doing everything previously mentioned but slacking off because I’m used to being mediocre. And just getting by has always been enough for me. I look back and think, and know, success scares me. I know that sounds strange, but I have always made the wrong decision when I had plenty of opportunity to make the right one. I’ll give you a million complaints instead of actually trying. And lie to you and said I’ve tried, when I haven’t.

I had every opportunity to build a full clientele, press on clientele, store, and more if I actually kept at it. But I just made an easy $200 for the day and went home. I was plenty satisfied. But that’s branching off. Moving ahead, with the car I just purchased, the brakes went out. I went to get them done and when he took off the wheel, a bunch of parts just fell out like legos, it was awful. Next week, my engine went out. And it was bad, irreplaceable he says. I thought to myself, what am I gonna do? There goes my main source of income, I need that raggedy car. But it was now gone. I made enough money to pay rent for one month, but what shall I do for April? I had no clue. So many friends and family said go back to trucking, I gave them a stern no, I hated truck driving. So I applied to other places, a terrible salon, even a janitor at a warehouse. I was being very stubborn, I didn’t want to go back over the road.

But I had no choice left, I re-applied to my very first trucking company and they took me right in. I had to go retrain since it’s been nearly two years but I made it, easily. Didn’t think with 5 years behind me it would be very hard. So in April, I started driving trucks again.

And here is where things turn around. Within a week of me driving, my driver manager who still works there offered me to work a special account: Kraft, like the cheese. They only drive in the northeast. I accepted immediately, because of that decision and something else I started making more money than other senior drivers! It takes years to get my pay. I was starting to accept this new fate.

But I didn’t want anyone to know. I felt ashamed for failing like I did, I’m not the most popular person out there, but I didn’t want people to see or know what caused me to give up nails. But eventually they would know, you can only post so much right? After a while I started to not care, I was going to theme parks, buying new clothes. Eating all kinds of expensive food, because I’ve never been so free. I was blowing through each check every week and didn’t care because I had more money than I’ve ever had in my life.

That joy was real, and still is, but what happens now? Well, I’ll live. I do plan on moving back someday, and want to return to nails. But I am not interested in doing it full time at the moment. I don’t think I ever was. I love nails, but sitting behind a desk all day isn’t for me, and I accept that. I like traveling, taking classes, practicing, teaching, and most importantly my blog. I love to write, I could do it everyday, so while it seems my future maybe up in the air, I’ll be ok with that. Because I’ve failed, but I’ve also grown from it. I have new goals, new aspirations, I’m just keeping them a secret for now.

So maybe this helped you or maybe it didn’t. But either way it felt great telling you all. And this was just the surface of the story. Plenty of juicy details not ready for the public, but if you know me, you know I’ll tell you someday. But for now, I’ll see you later sweets.